The road

I remember... Yes I do.

I remember everything from the beginning even when I forget a little: it is like a fresh memory everytime that takes me to the darkest corner of my mind. I remember the way you looked like when I left.

I remember that I used to steal words from others and from you. It was like a competition: I  heard a word per chance and immediately after I want it to be mine; I want to be a part of it... Words make me shiver when they feed my missing part.

I remember the long road that I did not take that day it was like the longest road I've ever seen; it was like a choice, the hardest choice that I've ever made coming from a corner hidden in the land of the freemen. 

I remember what was left behind: the road was dark and the sun was not even a light.

The road seemed large but dangerous, and suddenly I felt the urge to walk that road, to be a complete part of it. I was alone riding all the horses coming across my way on that road. They were wild. I felt strong. They were numerous. I felt strong. They were beautiful. I felt strong.

The path was soft and silent and it sounded as a turning point coming from the inside. I abruptly understood the very words that seemed coming in my head in a foreign language previously.

«Do you remember the time?» the words said. «Do you still feel the flame?» and as I turned my head to the back of the story I saw the horses going back and leaving me in a perfect state of mind: alone yet free.  As I was looking at the horses disappearing in the shadow of the road I felt the bearable heat of the sun defying the darkness; and the road seemed suddenly paved in gold and I turned myself to the left to imagine looking at the scene from a distance and I saw no despair in the situation.

I remember the road at that time as it should have been for a long time, and the sun became brighter and brighter as I went on walking the road without going back in time anymore. I now understand the intensity of the feeling of me taking this very road. It is a relief and my feet were right even before my entire body, my head, and my heart.