Body of pregnant girl.

The first time I saw my body had changed,
I was in middle school;
Two years before high school.
And it has been a disaster,
A nightmare.
I was a shadow, I was nothing;
Then I became a monster,
Made of flabby flesh and grease.
I was feeling fat and heavy,
I was feeling oppressed and helpless.
I heard their voices,
Voices of stupid people 
Who laughed behind my back.
I listened my mother screaming
That I was fat and good for nothing.
Dinner was the moment of blames.
Guess what was the result?
Shame, guilt and despair.
I was ugly and I knew that.
But I didn't know what to do
To get out of this situation
Because no one wanted to help me.
I just avoïded mirrors
And I refused to touch my skin.