Bored

SUICIDAL MUSIC ON
ALL ALONE ON MY OWN
AS USUAL AS USUAL
NO ONE CARES
THEY ALL LIVE
NO ONE SEES I'M DEAD
ALL THE TIME ALL THE TIME
PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS OK
WHEN I'M SIX FEET UNDERGROUND
LOW, LOW SPIRITED
WHY AM I HERE ?
WHY SHOULD I LIVE ?
(HAVE I EVER ?...)
FEELING COLD
GROWING OLD
STILL NOTHING CHANGES
NEVER EVER
EVERYBODY GOES
AS FAR AS THEY CAN
THEY DON'T JUST CARE
PRETENDING HAVING FRIENDS
JUST A LIE
BUT WHO AM I FOOLING ?
WHO CAN I FOOL ?
NO FRIENDS
I CAN'T FORGET
MY LONELINESS IS KILLING ME
AND I CAN'T FAKE IT
CAN'T BEAR IT
AT ALL
AT ALL
LESS & LESS EACH DAY
SUFFOCATING
CAN'T BREATHE
FEELS LIKE DYING
RELIEVING / TERRIFYING
SUCH A THING...
WANT IT / FEAR IT
WANT TO LIVE
BUT TOO FRIGHTENNED FOR...
...SUCH A THING...
ALL THE TIME I'M THINKING
THINKING
HOW COULD I
LIVE ?
DIE ?
BE HAPPY ?
FIND MY WAY ?
FIND A PLACE IN THIS FUCKIN' WORLD ?
I NEVER WILL.
THAT'S WHAT I LEARN
DAY AFTER DAY
THE SAME OLD THINGS
REPEATING ON & ON
IT WILL NEVER STOP
EVEN DEAD
I'LL COME BACK & HAUNT HER
ALL THE TIME I'M WAITING
FOR IT TO COME
I LIVE JUST FOR THIS LAST MOMENT
LIVE JUST TO DIE
RELIEVING BUT TERRIFYING

RELIEVING BUT TERRIFYING.

7 mars 2005.