Dear Monster

I can see you through the clouds.
I feel your breath behind the wind.
I dry your tears falling from the sky.
And I, I'm running in the street,
In the fields,
To catch you.
I don't want you to go away.
I need you.
I'll always need you.
Mom,
Please come back!
I love you.
I swear I'm gonna be a better girl.
I won't lie to you anymore.
Please,
Don't leave me behind, on my own.
I've read all the message untold.
I've seen all your signs unclear.
I've understood all the things you wanted to tell me  but you couldn't tell me.
It's okay, Mom.
I'm okay and I always will.
I write everyday.
Hope for a better world each time I can.
But you know, I'm a grownup now.
You don't have to punish me
For the mistakes I made in past.
I haven't forgiven myself yet.
But I try.
I try so hard you know.
I've built myself all alone in the dark
With an invisible hand to guide me.
Look, Mom,
You could be the worse woman
The worse mother in the world.
You'll always be in my heart.