I forgive you

Another girl kissed you
Just in front of me
And you didn't say no

My eyes were burning
It was like a punch in the guts
My head was screaming not you not you not you

First I ran away
Then I looked straight at you
And you dared looking at your feet

You left the party like a ghost
I left it short after
I was prepared to cry myself to sleep

I knew we were not dating
I knew you were allowed to kiss anyone
Officially

But since the beginning it was always me
You and me
And that girl was not even pretty

I couldn't stop myself from being jealous
And sad being put aside
Again

But as I was walking in the street
The fate made you appear in front of me
It was the wrong direction

I knew you had bring the girl home
At least you didn't bring her to your place
But you didn't tell me

You didn't tell me anything apart from “What are you doing?”
I wanted to slap you and kiss you so much
You started walking and I just followed you

As always
It was a tacit deal between us
It was routine now

I was so fucking drunk and you were too
But I love it when we lie side by side in bed
It feels like a short time of eternity

I forgive you
I forgive you
I have no choice