Write the pain.

My heart trembles,
Slowly, faster,
Then slowly again.
My hands are shivering
As I try to put words on the paper.
Ideas tumble out in my head,
Memories come behind my eyes
Like an old black and white movie.
Tears slide along my cheeks,
Sadness invades my whole muscles,
All my nerves,
All my brain.
It is confusing,
It is brutal and harsh.
But I have to release myself from the darkness,
I must write everything I kept hidden for years,
The whole pain I lived with since childhood.