Your stomach growls

Do you know
How we feel
When you want to be pretty
While you are not ?
When you you try to lose weight
To be thin 
While it doesn't work ?
Do you know
How we feel
When you want to do those things
While you know dep in your heart
That you are fat and ugly ?
You try to private yourself from food
But a voice inside your head
Whispers to eat, 
And eat, and eat again.
I don't hate food,
But I hate eating.
I found a way to calm it down ;
With tea cups and cigarettes.
I smoked sometimes,
I dranked cups after cups 
When I was hungry.
It was not enough,
And it is not enough today.