Dark Waters

I would like to fall,
And sink slowly,
And drown soflty.
I would like to feel my lungs
Fill of water,
Until I cannot breathe;
Until I die.
Die a little,
Die forever.
What would it be 
If I left the world?
Thinking about the things 
I would not have missed;
Thinking about what I would 
Never have lived.
Where is the end of a life
I would not have cherished to the end?
Where is the end of a life
I would have traveled along only few steps?
Why would I want to hang on to ropes
That would crack in my hands,
Because of the heavy weight
Of secrets I keep inside?
What would it teach me
If I went through dark waters?